The Shift Diaries

Anne K. and I have exchanged a few communications today about dealing with conflict. One conflict I’m experiencing is related to creating the entries for the Shift Diaries. I announced they would be imperfect, but I notice whenever I work on an entry, I trigger my belief that they must be perfect. They’re being made public, after all. What will people think if they aren’t PERFECTLY written?!?!?!?

This conflict makes writing for the blog (how I HATE that word) a chore, which is not what I intended. So, how to allow my natural energy to flow in a free and fun way without opposing it with expressed beliefs about the importance of looking good in public? How do I allow my natural energy to flow when an automatic response is galloping away with me?

As usual, it’s very easy to parrot the concept, “I simply need to accept that whatever I do is FINE!” Implementing that concept is not so easy. (more…)

Anne tells me:

Two years ago, Elias said I was on the threshold.  In my latest session earlier this month, he said I was also on the threshold.  Well, I’ve been standing on that damn threshold for what feels like forever — when am I just gonna jump already! Gotta laugh. 

We must both be on that same old threshold and it is getting a bit dull just standing here–don’t ya think.  (more…)

Anne K. sends me an e-mail about how unpleasantly her Monday mornings begin as she immediately starts bombarding herself with list of “shoulds,” a habit I am intimately familiar with.

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The Monday morning thing is SO familiar to me! This morning I’m supposed to be writing a bio for a potential client and I’ve got a bad case of the “DON’T WANNAS.” Every time I think of doing this, I DON’T WANT TO DO IT! But what is it that I really don’t want to do? I don’t want to struggle with trying to present myself in some elusively perfect way, or, as Elias would say, I want to keep my attention on myself and express myself freely, which my beliefs say won’t work for a business presentation (more…)

Back-story: Anne K. contacts me via e-mail after reading a newly published transcript of my session with Elias (#1364) where I discuss having problems writing and I’m also trying to understand how to make the work I want to do fun instead of a chore. Anne wants to know how I’m applying Elias’s advice to me, since she’s dealing with similar challenges.

At this time, I’ve been isolating myself to the point of almost madness for several years, after fleeing the scene of my life coming completely apart from about 2000 through 2002. (more…)