The Shift Diaries

This is a long, pivotal piece of experience sharing, so I’m going to link to the page on my website, where I put it because it was easier to format than it is when writing in this clunky little blog editor.

How I quickly altered my reality by genuinely appreciating

The story starts like this:

Before I begin, let me say that my reality altered quickly once I genuinely appreciated my current circumstance. Really quickly—like in a month or two there was a major shift. AND it took me about three years of the most painful misery, struggle, and practice to move myself from almost constant discounting to genuine appreciation. AND I still wasn’t appreciating myself, although I did manage to genuinely appreciate a specific aspect of my current situation.

Anne tells me:

Two years ago, Elias said I was on the threshold.  In my latest session earlier this month, he said I was also on the threshold.  Well, I’ve been standing on that damn threshold for what feels like forever — when am I just gonna jump already! Gotta laugh. 

We must both be on that same old threshold and it is getting a bit dull just standing here–don’t ya think.  Read the rest of this entry »

Anne K. sends me an e-mail about how unpleasantly her Monday mornings begin as she immediately starts bombarding herself with list of “shoulds,” a habit I am intimately familiar with.

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The Monday morning thing is SO familiar to me! This morning I’m supposed to be writing a bio for a potential client and I’ve got a bad case of the “DON’T WANNAS.” Every time I think of doing this, I DON’T WANT TO DO IT! But what is it that I really don’t want to do? I don’t want to struggle with trying to present myself in some elusively perfect way, or, as Elias would say, I want to keep my attention on myself and express myself freely, which my beliefs say won’t work for a business presentation Read the rest of this entry »

Back-story: Anne K. contacts me via e-mail after reading a newly published transcript of my session with Elias (#1364) where I discuss having problems writing and I’m also trying to understand how to make the work I want to do fun instead of a chore. Anne wants to know how I’m applying Elias’s advice to me, since she’s dealing with similar challenges.

At this time, I’ve been isolating myself to the point of almost madness for several years, after fleeing the scene of my life coming completely apart from about 2000 through 2002. Read the rest of this entry »